Streetlights - 808s & Heartbreak

I'd say I messed up

Done things I shouldn't

At the time, maybe, it seemed like a good idea

But now I know it wasn't

Yea I'll take full responsibility for that

Because in all reality I wasn't thinking

Yet in my defense, sometimes it easier not to

The pain of my thoughts have me sinking

Especially considering how life's turned out

I'd say I messed up

Isn't that what you want to hear, right?

Said one or two many lies too much

Would've thought to just keep my mouth shut

But that doesn't do any good these days either

The truth does come out anyway

Well most of it does

And thats a good thing for you

I doubt you could handle all the truth

I'd say I messed up

Priorities screwed up, ambitions tainted, hope demolished

Tarnished brass once polished

I clearly see the problems

You've mapped them all out for me

But let's just say, I am a product of my raising

And not all of the fingers should be pointed at me

Yet I still try not to show resentment 

Despite of the fact it seeps through my pores

I'd say I messed up

I face the brutal consequences now

Honestly, I've seen it coming for a while

Been collecting bottles of water and canned foods

AA batteries, flash lights

Even nailed boards over the windows

I've prepared for the storm

Gotten pretty numb to the situation completely

I hear thats called a mental defense mechanism

Maybe so, but I've grown so tired of crying and fighting with myself

Tired of smiling when there's nothing to smile about

MP.